I’ve been dreading this time for awhile. I’ve been grasping frantically to hold onto these last few weeks as my sweet, little newborn transformed into an infant. Saying goodbye to the fourth trimester is bittersweet as I’m not sure I’m really ready to be done with these fleeting newborn days. I remember with my first, thinking to myself that I couldn’t wait for the next milestone. With our second child, and likely our last, I hold my breath wanting to savor her littleness and sweet baby ways as long as possible.
These past 3 months felt more like 3 weeks. It takes my breath away and I held back tears today as I packed up her already too small clothing. I’m not ready to say goodbye to the newborn phase and admit that it’s already moved on.
As I watch her grow, I see all the newborn semblances slowly drift away. Her transition from her own personal world in my womb to this loud and sometimes callous world has been seamless. The twitches and reflexes typical of a newborn have disappeared and there is a calmness that takes over when she’s sleeping. The precious baby that slept her days away, is now emerging as an active and awake infant (although her less frequent night nursing is a welcomed change).
Her movements are becoming calculated, almost smooth, and she’s taking in everything in around her. Grasping toys, kicking her sweet feet, and even beginning to roll over. She’s determinedly lifting her head and even attempting to sit up, as if she fears she’s missing out on something. I think she’s already yearning to keep up with her energetic and loving big brother. Determination may just be this little girls middle name.
I see her gaining some independence and not feeling the need to be held closely for hours at end. She’s taking this world on and is thriving at this transition. In those moments where my warm arms are her solace and the only thing that calms her, I breathe in her sweet smell, hold her tiny wrinkled fingers, pet her shedding soft hair and stroke her smooth skin in wonderment. I soak in this quiet moment of calm before returning to the craziness of everyday life with a newborn and toddler.
Knowing that it’s most likely our last baby, I find myself desperately holding onto these moments and changes. Wishing for her to be a tiny newborn a little bit longer. It really is the longest shortest time. For now, I’ll pull her in a little bit closer, hold her a bit longer and revel in her sweet baby smell.
For those of you that are done having kids, how you did you know when your family was complete and for others, what’s your ideal family size? I’d love to hear your thoughts.
Precious little girl. Every moment goes by so fast. Take photos, write everything down. Helps you remember.
She is adorable! And time seems to fly and they grow so fast! It seems like yesterday I was holding a screaming infant but in reality I now have a screaming threenager. Enjoy and savor these moments!
I wish I had taken more time to appreciate or relish the newborn phase. My girl is 9 months old now and I just couldn’t wait for her to hit all the milestones, but now as sh’s growing like a weed and changing it almost breaks my heart that she isn’t going to be little forever.
Oh, this gives me all the feels. I love the newborn stage right now with my second. He’s almost 2 months and I’m not in any rush this time, I like I was with my first.
Like you I decided to stop at two since I had a boy and then a girl. I thought this was the perfect size for our family. Years later I realize that we should have had one more. I always regretted that I didn’t have a third child.
She is so cute. No kids here and I’m not sure it’s something I want personally but I love being Auntie!
These pictures are adorable! Your baby has such personality.
It really is the longest shortest time. – I LOVE IT!! – and it’s so true. my “baby” is now 3 and those teeny baby times seem like a lifetime ago.
I totally understand. I LOVE the newborn phase. Mine turns one next week and I just can’t believe it. We have two now and I am not sure if we are done or not…that must mean that we are not. 🙂
What a cutie! I am not a mom and sometime can’t decide what I want to do. However, my sister in law is pregnant and I cannot wait to be an aunt. I love children but they are much better for other people!
Your words couldn’t ring truer and any Momma can relate!! My youngest will be two in Aug. and she is my 3rd and as of now last little. Each and every moment with her is SO treasured, not that it wasn’t with my other two, but there is something about coming to grasp this could be our “last” of these kinds of memories made! Saver and cry and dwell in each moment girl!!! These memories are all yours!
First of all she is stunning. Second of all I am so on the same page as you. everyone says to cherish every moment but I just keep looking forward to the next milestone and then tonight I was rocking my son to sleep and realised hes not a baby, hes a little boy and it broke my heart! It happens so fast.
This is so beautiful! Such a beautiful little girl too! My little bundle turned into this big bundle quick too, he’s almost a year now and even though i tried holding on to every moment as much as I could, i still wish I did it even more
She is beautiful! With my daughter (our first), I was definitely counting down and looking forward to milestones. I can only imagine that with our second one day, I will want time to stand still. Lovely post, mama.
Just cried my eyes out reading this!!! LOVE this post!!
Awww she is adorable, too precious. I am sure you will enjoy every single phase of her growth just as much as you enjoyed her new-born baby phase.
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She is absolutely adorable!! This has me yearning for a baby/family so badly. I can only imagine your desire to cherish all her moments since you don’t think you all will have any more babies.
This breaks my heart but is so beautiful! & your little girl is so precious oh my goodness! Thank you for sharing! & our ideal family is 4 Lord-willing!! (As of now haha) xx
Awww. Such a cutie pie. You pictures are so adorable.
Gorgeous little creatures, aren’t they? I love this post and I’m right there with ya, sister. Ideally I’d love three kids, but I find myself tired now and wondering if I want another just for the sake of having a “large” family.